Broadway’s Home

Hello World,

 

This day is starting off on the right track for real. I’m back where everything is big, Agg Town what up, Tripple D what up, Funky Town what up. Man I feel such a weight has been lifted off my back. Broadway’s  home, yes i said it I’m home everybody. Taking that four-month vacate from the stress in Texas was cool. I needed to really get away and build with my family, The Love Boat is going to be alright. My Pastor Harold Durham and First Lady Durham said the trip was going to make us, or break us and we made it. Not big on Christianity, but GOD provided that bond and love. Looking back at the Johnson vacation it really had its challenges and tests. God is that solid rock, I had to be taken to the King as Tamela Mann said. I don’t want people to think I softened up, I just know how to let it be known I’m not in the street life building my status no more. My ladies have really set me to reality, if I go who can they depend on to love them like I do. I know people will say they will help them out, but people that’s my responsibility to take care of mines no one else. So long as the Lord bless me to live, I’m working on setting them up for life.  My son that is coming  in God’s timing is really going to learn everything from a real guy, and see his dad stick around to handle business. No jabs are being thrown at all, I’m thankful for my sperm donor he taught me to be stronger without his helping hand. My dad Quinton Currie taught me to stand as a man with Faith in the Big Man upstairs. It took someone who didn’t birth me to teach me somethings about life, I’m bless to at least to have someone who felt I was important enough to love me. As a teen he had my back, now I am able to look back and say I had a dad when I needed one the most. He married my mom, and still standing with her for  twelve years and going. To my little brother that had his life cut short, I love you. Just know your big brother here living for you the way you should see life. Everything happens for a reason, but God know what it takes for people to straighten out. I want people to really know me instead of assuming they do. I’m mature and smarter than I was coming up. This four months away from the only parent that birth me, taught me to separate and love from a distance.  She did the best she could to raise to young men on her own, both in college. One married with a family, so she did pretty darn good. Angie you will always be a good mother in my eyes, no matter the drama we have so that’s what it is. Anyone that looks in and think different she had tough love growing up and that was history repeated. Connie Broadway has so much influence in our lives that she will never know, unless God let her watch in on us. I can live with the fact that so many love ones have been taken from me. God needed them to straighten them out, or show them on the big screen what mess ups they have done over their time of living. I love all you all, Big Stuff you walked me to school everyday. Grandma Connie you live through my daughter same bday and all. Uncle Arthur you live through so many of us it’s crazy attitudes and everything. Most of all my big sis and brother Charles and Charleen thanks for letting me and Dezi take mom’s attention. It would have been cool to have a big brother and let me be a middle child. Back to the mission my extended family has made me feel so loved, blood don’t make us any closer. I’m closer to my extended family it’s crazy how God let people come into my life and stay there even when I thought they had arterial motives. I’m glad to have brothers and aunts and uncles that want the best for me without even being from the same bloodline. I wish I can touch some people hearts to want the same for themselves, because as time is coming to an end with the world family is more important again. I am going to have to end this post on a note that people will understand I am blessed and highly favored through Christ that strengthens me. Only dude that you know that God gives everything to when the timing is right free of charge. Getting ready to get a new car, because he has better things for me. God puts me to the test with problems so much, I know he figure I wouldn’t be bothered by the weight. I always overcome, and do my thing with my ladies. They love me unconditionally and proves it everyday. I uplifted them from their home to take them somewhere I know they don’t fit in. God brought us back to his Country as my Pastor say. Thanks for reading my welcome back home letter.

 

Peace, love and hair grease.

P.S. Uncle Malcom and The Misses

You all made my last night there the best ate a crave case, and apple bee’s at the same darn time, lol.

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One For The Road

Hello World,

I will like to let you all know I am going back to Texas in a couple of days. For those that don’t know I’m in Saint Louis, the place I am originally from. I have been residing in TX for the last five years, but decided to move back to the STL thinking that will solve somethings. Overall it honestly did, I have realized home is where I want to make it and not where I’m from. Also I have had heart to heart conversations with those I decided to filter out my life for the last five or more years. It feels good to put a foundation down and build something with them I lost contact with over small reason really. One thing about me I can shelter people out, but today is a new day and I will walk with my head held high and have no harsh feelings towards anyone that I once did. These few months I been in the LOU has gave me more insight than I expected for real. I enjoyed myself these past few months, it wasn’t bad as I first thought. Chilled with a few of the old team, Killa Cam, Meech aka Mardi, Big Cuz Tankee. It was straight to be back in the LOU to get things ironed out.Oh yeah Yakima Donald big sis I loved having family time on Mondays for Hip Hop Atlanta At my crib. You and K Marie have a spot when you ready holler at you brother. Last but not less my grandmother on my real father side, Ms Johnson; she really genuinely loves and cares, just never wanted to open doors that I felt would’ve hurt. Now I feel it happened in God’s timing and it was meant for this time. We chilled for an hour and talked all about me and my ladies, not about the parents and I was relieved. It’s existing to be going back to the Lone Star feeling like a lot was accomplished on this journey, I didn’t understand at first. I actually hung out with three of my little brothers on my father side, they got mad respect for your boy who never grew up around them. I think everything is going to continue to mold me into something great before my appointment to see JESUS. I know I crack a lot of dangerous jokes about the after life in heaven or hell,but I really feel God gave me this sense of humor to uplift me when I hurt like using my writing as a weapon.  Anyone that wants to reach me use the blog email, or let me know and I will contact you by text, or phone. I love being a social butterfly, thanks to TX. Man that state helps me and loves me. The Show Me State does to a certain degree, but no love lost only gained. My SS Mino Johnson Love Boat is signing out for a while.

Please bare with me and stay tuned.

Peace,Love and Hair Grease.

Woke Up Feeling Good

Hello Everybody,

 This morning was great, had some one on one time wife the wife before starting the day. After I arrived at work the dark clouds started to surround the area. Of course you can guess what happened next, rain, rain and more rain. Though it is pouring recycled water over and over, it still is a good day. For those that don’t know, I am getting ready to move back home to the Lone Star state. I sent an application off to the apartments I will like to move into. Asking God to once again favor me and my ladies to get where we want to go. I know I was hard-headed and moved without his consent, but I have learned not to move within my feelings. Every time I start to think about my finances I start to worry, but God say don’t worry in good doings. So I am going to try to hold fast to his power and faith. I do know once I get back to where I belong in “God’s Country” I will be fine all over again. I should never let someone discourage me from being happy and enjoying myself. I vow I will put up with the extra stuff, than to move my family into an uncomfortable place ever again. I love  my family and relatives, I know you may be thinking why say both in the same sentence. In this case family is people you can argue/ fight with and still be there when it counts. Relatives are those that only come around, or keep in contact when they are in need of whatever.  Deep down I know I won’t have the dream team I want, but I can make the best of all the company from all angles. I will just have to separate the pieces and play my part to keep things assembled. The division in my families are keeping me stand-offish, not trying to be rude, just wanting to keep peace and hold me sane. It’s hard being a person that’s young and a black sheep trying to stand your ground to everyone that’s much older and don’t respect you in some way. Overall I don’t harbor any feelings towards it, I just know long as I got me that’s what really matters. Let me get back to what I really started off thinking about. Sorry for the loop, a customer at my job stopped me to help with some garden hardware. I want to do right by those that stand behind me. If I somehow let you down, hey don’t forget you let someone else down as well. Man I know how to flip the script, I’m good at that. This year I do plan to vote, but only for the politician that gives the better support for those in the middle class. Most likely Obama, just saying he came from the Chi where things are tough, like Saint Louis. I wanted to throw that out there, he has his motives to, but it’s not going to hurt blacks and browns like if Romney gets in office. I need grants and things of that nature to go to school, but being that he is rich now he forgot where he came from apparently. Then on top of that Romney wants to convict every female that gets abortions, but don’t want to stop what’s really killing us. Wow politicians are crazy, so I may not vote, nah I am. Lost track of time again so I am going to get back to my day job. Another out of space thought, I have gotten better with my spelling errors.

Have A Good Day.

Lord I’m Crying Out

Dear Heavenly father,

I ask that you touch me and my family finances and give us the faith much bigger or the exact size of a mustard seed. I ask that you touch and agree with the leap of faith we’re getting ready to take. Fathers forgive me for moving in the first place from reacting to emotions and not your word. Lord I plead with you that you be in the mist of the storm and present us with sunny skies. I ask that you Lord take control over our situation and grant us peace throughout the transition. Lord take anything that’s unlike you out of my thoughts and heart. I do not want to fail you and disappoint you by any means. Forgive me for I know I always sin, please throw my wrongs in the sea of forgiveness. I’m sorry I haven’t allowed you to step in and guide my steps through my whole journey of life. I ask that now you take and proclaim my life as your own. Take me with all my flaws and make me into the provider I am supposed to be. Help me walk in my calling and let me understand the ways of your thinking. Bless me to get back to the peace and humbleness I once carried.I dread not being able to come up with conversations that will make our relationship stronger. Lord help me in every weak area I harvest instead of killing off daily. Heavenly Father help order our steps and anything that’s not of you, in Jesus name we pray (AMEN).

Everyone that reads this post please touch and agree. The BIble says when two or more are gathered in his name, he should be in the mix.

Thanks for those that keep us in prayer.

The Confession

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Let me give you some insight.

You only stick around to see my ship sink.

Haven’t had much to say in a while.

You use to throw words around, like Scrabble on a Sunday.

Monday through Friday you acted all independent.

Now that I moved forward, you can tell how I ascended.

Apprehended everything that I felt belonged to me.

You ruptured me, departed from my waist line.

Killed the old me to leave my soul behind.

Flesh was on your shelf, hanging from your mantle.

All because I talked belligerent and had you mentally abused.

Seeing you amused with my inner distortions.

I can see you don’t love me, only when it’s convenient.

I can sense you may despise me, with all the hate I applied.

Feeling appalled by the storms we had.

Buzz thee alarm if I intrude on the space you have.

It’s kind of shady how the inter-scope can show the aftermath.

Crying in your sleep, from the masonry I landscaped around your burning heart.

Letting you know what’s going on with me, this is my confession.

Please continue to be the priest I confessed to.

Living in a box with a fluorescent tube lighting over it.

This is a deluxe room since it comes with high definition images.

Tried to many times to follow suit, all I received was prosecute.

Forever hear allegations, with no evidence to find me guilty.

I’m bound to appeal if the accusations tend to stick.

Haven’t had much time to take my trips, and not down memory lane.

I want to leave the past buried in the grave.

Please don’t go, was all I use to say.

Now a days we can catch the early morning flight to departure.

If we are going off the way I was raised, I am far from that.

Yeah it bothers me, to know right and do different.

As I age, hoping to mature wiser.

Hoping one day I can set the example as a role model, to those that grow under me.

 

 

Thanks for the release.

The Best Of My Moods

 

Let’s come take a walk with me.

Things are really taking a turn for the worse.

You all should know I’m finally here.

I do need people to pray for me.

I wake up feeling hunted by the screams of people.

Telling me all the wrong I have done.

As they come to me one by one, I see no face.

I was once someone who could be calm, then flip out.

I know how it may seem, I’m a bad boy.

Never meant to conjure up anger, and bitterness.

I wish I could tell you my hurt, but you would only run from me.

As for me I see life as a ball while I’m shackled.

I know I will never see why the lessons.

One day it should come to a stop, and not be brief.

Trying to give my all, so I can keep you all around.

It’s hard how things don’t turn out like I visioned.

Is this the way it suppose to be.

If tomorrow is not promised, why can’t we stay happy long enough to see the world.

I want me and old homies to kick it.

All they see is I left and created a large bridge, to far to cross.

I can reintroduce myself I am Broadway.

I can not sit and watch things fly by.

My sister Chaz Jones let me know how to recognize the big picture.

She was my reality check, she was young and couldn’t overcome her obstacle.

She passed at a young age and left a lil man.

I wish I would’ve been there to help with the broken pieces.

Chaz you the reason why I know how a strong person can live and show no anger with the illness.

Know I miss you, I check on the fam every chance I get.

Let me know in my dreams if I am living up to what a friend is.

You helped me through a lot of tragic situations in life.

You helped encourage me when I got married, trying to be there for me.

I couldn’t return the favor, since I couldn’t tell Jesus not now.

Rest in Peace sis, I can’t figure out why you were the most positive person in my life even when you was timed.

Now that so much has pasted me up, I’m going crazy .

Maybe I attract drama, don’t know if it’s just the trend life is obsessed with.

I feel like hell on earth, is keeping me from moving forward.

Patience is something I can’t provide, since things don’t give me time.

Like you want to know, why I can’t say I’m going to make life treasure.

Most situations pull me under, and chase me to the winehouse.

Knowing I’m fresh out the rehab.

My dreams and visions can make you think hard.

Blink just once you can be consumed by my inception.

I feel like an old soul, why looking like misery.

I feel like I’m stuck in my time, I try to do different things just stay the same.

Don’t you criticize me for being me, when I don’t know who I am.

I’m numb to the hurt, so I’m overlooked and misunderstood.

Everything I know to do right, I sense to do wrong.

Hopefully my daughter grows up to be there for me, knowing how guilty I am.

Hopefully my wife can get to understand me, and don’t suppress.

I just want to be different, but still stay the same under the sun.

I’m always on the outside looking in.

I can see through you, even though I’m selfish.

I look in the mirror and feel I’m not desirable.

I don’t let up, so you can let me down.

Don’t dim my lights to slight me.

You looking for someone to blame, I can’t be that solution.

I pour my heart over my words and you still try to thrill me.

You can never drill me, to derail me.

I fall and get up and I’m still me.

Some of you all say you love me, but then somehow it’s not the same.

Most of you don’t see my growth, only my failures in some positions.

Some folks are so naive, not me I go insane.

I’m immune to the depression, so it may be my brain.

High off more than life, got more than what’s in the pupil of the eye.

A lot of you always throw out thoughts like grace.

It may have to be unforgiving that I can’t move at the pace as others.

I’m only just being me, I love me more.

Uplifting you when I can’t get up, how does that work.

I love the pain, and suffering.

I’m successful off my own admission.

Long way to go, after I wake up out this coma.

I see the spot light, where the sun burns my skin.

We are like birds with feathers.

Guess the fake is going to relax the real.

Truth can kill, if you with draw.

I have to stay calm, being that the ones who probably love me most is dead and gone.

My inspiration comes from the way of walking.

Don’t ask me to break up like the balls on the pool table.

Stress and my soul makes pleasure, that cause hurt.

These are my issues so we never really met.

I’m out…..

Thanks for taking another ride with me.

To You Salina

Babe you mean a lot to me, it’s a shame that I can’t explain myself in person. How I feel inside, so I had to use this computer and keypad to show you what I had to say. This is the way I love you girl, I don’t mean to hurt you. Everybody got something to say, but don’t let that work on you. So don’t trip off the negative things. Look forward to the positive things in our lives to come. It look like seasons we changing it up. We went from talking on the phone and staying up all night, to going over each other houses and watching movies on the couch. Until we changed up like bright lights, now you my sunshine looking over me, now my life so bright. We taking long walks in the park after dark, holding hands kissing in romance. As we make wishes upon the stars far above in the sky, it’s so fly how we sit back and reclaim all the time. You my sunshine and everything in my heart. Nothing in this world can rip us apart, you have my support on anything. Whatever you want to become, or do, I’m so true and faithful to you babe. You my love aka dove pearly white and fly above all. So I pray we never have a down fall, I just relate it to basketball I try to tak the ball down court and make it through the hoop. So I can score with your heart and doors so we can one day start a family. You in love, I’m in love, we’re in love together.You in love, I’m in love, we’re in love together.

Just something I wrote in the past, that will never make it past this point in my life. Really it have come to past for me,Salina Johnson.

Have a good day everyone.