Thoughts For Survival

Hello everyone,

Let me start off by saying anyone that thinks life is not fair, it was never meant to be fair. Yes we all go through situations and ask God why. When really everybody says the same thing everything happens for a reason. So if everything happens for a reason and God allows it, then it must be to show approval. I’m a put it out there for you all to read, I have been living less than paycheck to paycheck for the last 3 yrs. Of course it bothers me, but when you think like I do you just learn to deal with it and go about your way. It’s like no matter how hard you try to do right, it’s always set backs. I was watching the vice presidential debate, and what I received from that was history repeats itself. Meaning when racism and hatred was at an all time high back in the day. Put two and two together and you will see those things coming back to the necked eye, and it’s just getting started. Poverty is now raising to the middle class and modern-day slavery is here. Every time I turn around the politicians is mentioning how it’s going to be either rich, or poor. It hurts to see how the people who make up this whole country fall for the mess they feed us. Everything that happens in the United States, is actually planned. The September 11th event was scheduled originally in the mid 90’s.  How is it that the Americans doesn’t read between the lines. Another thing you know it’s all staged, when in my history class during high school I watched Bin Laden train those kids without the green screen technology. Having a black president is even staged, like the Mr. Kennedy killing. I’m not trying to persuade you all at all, all I want you to do is read and watch how things happens in America. It’s wild how those that do make a career out of living off the system. I do agree with Romney about taking those that’s on Housing off, because they’re not the ones that pay taxes. For us that pay taxes for the others that abuse the system I can’t stand the most. Reason being is because when one of us hard workers that may have a rough patch, gets denied for help. Just because those people who use the tax payers money just as well as the prisons. I don’t get while the money we pay taxes with goes towards those that don’t deserve the three hots and a cot. I work  hard and sometimes can’t eat three times a day. Back to the Government I can’t stand how they only out to build the rich people pockets and the ones that’s need a break can’t get ahead. History didn’t lie though America was founded on lies and greed. To this very day those disgracing principles are still among us now. All I know all of us have the same organs and all have the same life spans. It’s just that some of us is not going to compromise our dignity to reach fame and fortune.  So now that I gave you enough to think about, just sleep on that for a while.

Everyone please take interest to be honest with yourselves about what’s going on in the world. Another big thought to think about, “Rich People” only donate and start foundations to get people around the world like the middle class to support them.  Really all it is when they do it, it’s considered a tax write off. Last time I checked donations is something you do from the heart and not for what you can get in return. For instance if I start a cancer foundation and gain fans plus a tax credit, I basically gained what I have donated plus more. Just open your eyes and think hard and be honest when doing so.

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Peace, love and hair grease.


Pain After I Wake

As I woke today I looked at my bank account and seen  I couldn’t do anything, but pay my rent.

Also my bus passes this week coming, shaking my head.

I come from a place where I never had to ride public transportation, but now I do.

That’s not the big issue as I first seen it as.

It’s the fact that the black and white people who ride them is ignorant.

I am spoiled is what people say, and they are right.

My mom sheltered me, or as I see it my mom worked her butt off to supply me with what I needed in this life.

Now that I’m older me and my mom don’t speak much and it hurts, because I always had someone to look out for me when I fell short.

Things do change, even when unexpected.

I come to realize there is only family when they are in need.

That’s not how I was raised, I would give you the shirt off my back to make sure you are good.

People only call me when it is convenient for them.

I am always being told to be the bigger person, to turn the other cheek.

People that say they love you, aren’t always they’re to love you when you feel it’s important.

When I was up and doing fine in life, I was the first person people called to get something.

Now I need a breath of fresh air, people are nowhere to be found and dodging me.

I hope they know I love them all, but now from a distance.

All they say is I burnt bridges, but how you think I feel.

Just as much pain and hurt I probably caused you, I’m sure you have done the same to me.

I remember that I was important to check in on to see if I was doing okay.

Things have come a long way from then, I only get calls when people die, or not even then.

Sad how life treats you.

I was told once before by a mentor, good things happen to good people.

I feel like not for me, I feel depression can make people commit suicide for the pain.

People is going to look at that previous line as I’m planing my death.

Not knowing life itself has chosen my path for me.

Texas is the place where my paycheck couldn’t even pay my rent at one time.

To coming back to my birth place that I hate and paying it with no problem.

Still seeing the blind side of the stress from not affording life’s materials you need.

I’m just human and have to put my life on display since I am so shielded.

I don’t have to tell things in more detail, but people who do decide to call me wants to know what happened.

All I can say is life happened and tricked me into being birthed.

It’s not my choice to be here on the earth where things are ruled by greed and power.

I feel damned that I have to be trapped in my demise like this.

All I want is sleep.

I have seen more than I can bare, from death to shootouts and drugs sold.

I slept around so much before I got married, to where I can’t lust to cheat like other men when I’m angered with my wife.

People want my life in a book and it’s plenty to tell.

I recall one time walking over my old friend after he got shot and damaged real bad, didn’t know it was him.

Life is a trip you have to be prepared for at all times.

Wish I could call on God sometimes, but do he want me to see tragic trials to get me lifted.

I’m at the bottom of a hill, and can’t walk up it to save my life.

People will never understand where I have been in life until they can say I have stood in front of that gun.

Letting the holder know what you would still do to him, with no fear of death.

Well I have, and I am proud to say I have done what most people couldn’t stand to do.

I don’t fear death, I fear leaving my daughter with no one to love her.

Went to school for a good minute, now I have to push it back.

It’s bad because I was an honors student, without working and studying hard.

My chances have been taking from me, just because my turn is now to face struggle again.

Hell is here not in an after life.

The earth is the devil’s playground, and if you feel different walk in my shoes.

I have been told I am on the road of having a stroke or heart attack.

How would you know, if I always have to call you.

Man I would rather die young working hard.

Than die old forced to work a job to survive then.

All I can say now is pray for me, since people don’t have time to pray with me.

Hope I can hold my head up with no frustration anymore.

I’m done before I keep telling my business.

World Vs The Church

I was analyzing the Meek Millz and a pastor named (Jomo) dispute about the “amen” song. It’s very interesting how pastor(Jomo) stepped out of his place to try and speak to someone that is out of touch with the spiritual connection with God. I listened for the first time to the aired discussion and Meek said he does’nt want to hear anything about what pastor (Jomo) had to say and went on to say he doesn’t believe in God. Well there you have it, the conversation should have ended there. Tuning in I felt as if pastor (Jomo) should have let it be, because common sense would have let me know you can’t speak to someone that’s rolling in doe. Especially a person that has one goal in life, is to make his music sell to feed his family. Me personally I never waste my time to argue about someone believing like I do nor watch what they say like I do. People around the world view God differently, than others. So you could never really reach out to them, only through prayer. When that person is put on a higher level in life that you are. To think a rapper would really hear you out is funny to me because he’s always going to view it as you want something out of it. Regular people act like that everyday, and they barely making rent money, just saying. I believe in God and I have Christian beliefs because I want to now that I’m older. Even as a artist of so many things myself, I wouldn’t dare write songs of that nature, just saying. Overall I felt Pastor (Jomo) should have just kept him on his prayer list….Bottom line everybody isn’t ready to except the Lord until they are ready, or when he makes them break down to that point in life. Lesson learned pastors that really preach the life they live, don’t have to step out they element. My Pastor would’ve never took part in that, he let God fight battles like that. It’s to many people in the world, for someone just to finger out one person wrong doings. Please give me feed back because it’s crazy that I feel the way pastor (Jomo) does, and understand Meeks frustration. We as humans have had our share on the other side of life, we all are not perfect nor born without sin.