This Time

Wake up laying in the bed.

From a nightmare of seeing the dead surrounding me.

Visualizing how spirits can hunt the living.

So as I lay I thank God I’m still awake.

Drowned just yesterday in my sorrows.

Feeling like time is now.

Standing at a cliff on the edge.

Looking down, seeing a bottomless hole.

Heard a voice say take a leap of faith.

Time is now, if I want to bury my past.

As I say my last prayer, a sign was given.

Didn’t want to see nor hear truth.

Lies of a liar called life.

Why should I fall to see light in darkness.

I thought living was being alive.

How do I believe a guy who enslaved me.

Modern day slavery, when I pay to die.

Pain is pleasure like bitter turned sweet.

Follow the widows peak to get peace.

Take the pill to start saving.

The more I do, the solution goes far from home.

I grab the cross & Bible to give life.

While jumping I never seen a vision so clear.

Brought myself to the point of what’s called suicide.

Being raised up from the barrow.

Born again religion tells me, free from sin.

 

Thanks, everyone for being patient with me. I have been working hard to sustain in life.

This year I will be getting back to the poetry and short stories.

Have a Blessed Day.

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Do Tell

Hello world;

 

Trying to talk to them, being very conservative.  Answering questions as they come, not receiving my responses. Hard to not mention my beliefs, due to all incoming aspects. Observing as much as I can, to keep hold on my full house. Seeing people bid on the call, just to realize I don’t bluff. So for those that bring Jesus up, that’s the Father over me. Yes I am human, so I try to dodge impugning. Everyone interprets things in many ways. Most tend to believe things are viewed one way. Not holding on to the fact that we all are born in similar ways. Life is moving at a rapid pace, some like myself has seen death’s face. Don’t let that scare you, situations happen everywhere. It’s a part of being birthed. As I can testify why did I make it, out of all the sperm cells. For the most part everyone has a purpose. It’s up to you what you choose to do with your choice.  I myself choose to act right by my mission. I want to make an impact, but in a positive way. Becoming a great leader, come from me being able to follow under superior guidance and leadership. some misunderstand and take it as if I’m talking belief. I’m really just talking life and survival. With my words I will offend, as well as enlighten people going through struggles. All they are looking for is someone who knows how they feel. So let your negativity be your owns, others need the help.

 

 

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Thoughts For Survival

Hello everyone,

Let me start off by saying anyone that thinks life is not fair, it was never meant to be fair. Yes we all go through situations and ask God why. When really everybody says the same thing everything happens for a reason. So if everything happens for a reason and God allows it, then it must be to show approval. I’m a put it out there for you all to read, I have been living less than paycheck to paycheck for the last 3 yrs. Of course it bothers me, but when you think like I do you just learn to deal with it and go about your way. It’s like no matter how hard you try to do right, it’s always set backs. I was watching the vice presidential debate, and what I received from that was history repeats itself. Meaning when racism and hatred was at an all time high back in the day. Put two and two together and you will see those things coming back to the necked eye, and it’s just getting started. Poverty is now raising to the middle class and modern-day slavery is here. Every time I turn around the politicians is mentioning how it’s going to be either rich, or poor. It hurts to see how the people who make up this whole country fall for the mess they feed us. Everything that happens in the United States, is actually planned. The September 11th event was scheduled originally in the mid 90’s.  How is it that the Americans doesn’t read between the lines. Another thing you know it’s all staged, when in my history class during high school I watched Bin Laden train those kids without the green screen technology. Having a black president is even staged, like the Mr. Kennedy killing. I’m not trying to persuade you all at all, all I want you to do is read and watch how things happens in America. It’s wild how those that do make a career out of living off the system. I do agree with Romney about taking those that’s on Housing off, because they’re not the ones that pay taxes. For us that pay taxes for the others that abuse the system I can’t stand the most. Reason being is because when one of us hard workers that may have a rough patch, gets denied for help. Just because those people who use the tax payers money just as well as the prisons. I don’t get while the money we pay taxes with goes towards those that don’t deserve the three hots and a cot. I work  hard and sometimes can’t eat three times a day. Back to the Government I can’t stand how they only out to build the rich people pockets and the ones that’s need a break can’t get ahead. History didn’t lie though America was founded on lies and greed. To this very day those disgracing principles are still among us now. All I know all of us have the same organs and all have the same life spans. It’s just that some of us is not going to compromise our dignity to reach fame and fortune.  So now that I gave you enough to think about, just sleep on that for a while.

Everyone please take interest to be honest with yourselves about what’s going on in the world. Another big thought to think about, “Rich People” only donate and start foundations to get people around the world like the middle class to support them.  Really all it is when they do it, it’s considered a tax write off. Last time I checked donations is something you do from the heart and not for what you can get in return. For instance if I start a cancer foundation and gain fans plus a tax credit, I basically gained what I have donated plus more. Just open your eyes and think hard and be honest when doing so.

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Peace, love and hair grease.

Good Saturday

Hello Family,

Coming live to tell you, things are really progressing.

Though I have been going through the challenges of life.

With great test, come great wisdom that’s gained.

For family that I associate with every blue moon, I am living my life.

When telling people I am living a real christian life, most don’t except it.

So I just keep a distance with the realistic conversations.

Everyone doesn’t want best for the next, or like the progress for you.

I’m good for isolating myself, not to ignore those that may, or may not want to see me.

Now that I have grown in that area, I just know when it’s time to leave.

Being that I know how people can be, I just like to observe.

Back to the basics is what I’m doing for me and my team.

We living good, because blessings are around me constantly.

With blessings of course come the test.

Hate to say it, but Joe Budden said it best.

” God chose me to put a lot on my plate, because he know I wouldn’t be bothered by the weight.”

My strategy is to stay praised up and remind myself of that at all times.

God is my rock and conqueror, so half of the fights are to see me through.

As I continue my journey, I  want those that are willing to better themselves do so.

Life is to short, when you can not wake up the next morning and go to bed fine.

I am still highly favored and gifted.

The process of the first book is still in reason, taking time gathering messages to deliver.

My circle that consist of the chosen people I’m close to is lovely.

They all are doing well, going through their motions of walking.

My cousin Killa Cam is a future and prosperous young man.

He is a young man, that want to be a family guy as well.

All I can say every time I talk to him is keep it up.

Got off track for a minute, work is cool an old job.

Back at a job that I had when I first got married.

Crazy how I got a call from my old job already to receive an offer.

Funny how they know what they missed out on.

Long as I stay humble and continue to pay them tithes I should be good for the long run.

God like a man that’s faithful.

So may the church say AMEN!

Good day everyone, I am calling it a rap.

Everyone stay encouraged and know that it’s a test to get pass.

Everything happens for a reason.

Peace, love and hair grease!

Smile

Hello World,

 

Today is a new day.

Where it seems to rain and pour.

Sunshine to show through and brighten the day.

All the struggles of life can bring stress and anger.

Which turns into bitterness and pain.

When you think things are about to turn for the worst some more.

The light tends to shine brighter, than the darkness that rise.

Tell your storm it is only waiting to past.

Troubles will not last forever.

Every scar  in time will heal.

For every trial, there will be a judge to over rule.

All the tragic pleasures of life, overcoming the obstacle should take place.

Battle scars will be proven that you can with stand the fleshy  test in the world.

For every young man and woman in the world, there is someone to help you conquer the issue.

When two, or more are gathered in Jesus name, there he should be in the mist.

I really didn’t want to sound churchly, but God’s mercy I can’t deny.

He will fight your battles, long as you and I allow him to.

All he wants is a willing child.

I am a Godly man, that still live here on earth.

I do fall short within my flesh and sin.

I constantly fight my self on going by actions in God’s way.

Now I should not fight, and worry about feeling soft about being a Christian Man.

If God shows you love and kindness, letting you wake up give him praise.

I will not allow others to take me into a different direction of action when it comes to God’s love.

So stop giving those that wish upon your downfall power over you.

Realize that those that speak negative upon you are only doing what their spirit is telling them.

You are battling their spirit not them as a person.

It’s all a spiritual warfare, in the day of walking towards the King up stairs.

The real G O D.

 

 

 

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All of you that do read this, you are the ones that help me truly share my gift. Please leave a comment, or email the blog address Broadwayknowledgeblog@yahoo.com to inform me on what you think about my messages I give.

Have A Blessed Day!

One For The Road

Hello World,

I will like to let you all know I am going back to Texas in a couple of days. For those that don’t know I’m in Saint Louis, the place I am originally from. I have been residing in TX for the last five years, but decided to move back to the STL thinking that will solve somethings. Overall it honestly did, I have realized home is where I want to make it and not where I’m from. Also I have had heart to heart conversations with those I decided to filter out my life for the last five or more years. It feels good to put a foundation down and build something with them I lost contact with over small reason really. One thing about me I can shelter people out, but today is a new day and I will walk with my head held high and have no harsh feelings towards anyone that I once did. These few months I been in the LOU has gave me more insight than I expected for real. I enjoyed myself these past few months, it wasn’t bad as I first thought. Chilled with a few of the old team, Killa Cam, Meech aka Mardi, Big Cuz Tankee. It was straight to be back in the LOU to get things ironed out.Oh yeah Yakima Donald big sis I loved having family time on Mondays for Hip Hop Atlanta At my crib. You and K Marie have a spot when you ready holler at you brother. Last but not less my grandmother on my real father side, Ms Johnson; she really genuinely loves and cares, just never wanted to open doors that I felt would’ve hurt. Now I feel it happened in God’s timing and it was meant for this time. We chilled for an hour and talked all about me and my ladies, not about the parents and I was relieved. It’s existing to be going back to the Lone Star feeling like a lot was accomplished on this journey, I didn’t understand at first. I actually hung out with three of my little brothers on my father side, they got mad respect for your boy who never grew up around them. I think everything is going to continue to mold me into something great before my appointment to see JESUS. I know I crack a lot of dangerous jokes about the after life in heaven or hell,but I really feel God gave me this sense of humor to uplift me when I hurt like using my writing as a weapon.  Anyone that wants to reach me use the blog email, or let me know and I will contact you by text, or phone. I love being a social butterfly, thanks to TX. Man that state helps me and loves me. The Show Me State does to a certain degree, but no love lost only gained. My SS Mino Johnson Love Boat is signing out for a while.

Please bare with me and stay tuned.

Peace,Love and Hair Grease.

Pain After I Wake

As I woke today I looked at my bank account and seen  I couldn’t do anything, but pay my rent.

Also my bus passes this week coming, shaking my head.

I come from a place where I never had to ride public transportation, but now I do.

That’s not the big issue as I first seen it as.

It’s the fact that the black and white people who ride them is ignorant.

I am spoiled is what people say, and they are right.

My mom sheltered me, or as I see it my mom worked her butt off to supply me with what I needed in this life.

Now that I’m older me and my mom don’t speak much and it hurts, because I always had someone to look out for me when I fell short.

Things do change, even when unexpected.

I come to realize there is only family when they are in need.

That’s not how I was raised, I would give you the shirt off my back to make sure you are good.

People only call me when it is convenient for them.

I am always being told to be the bigger person, to turn the other cheek.

People that say they love you, aren’t always they’re to love you when you feel it’s important.

When I was up and doing fine in life, I was the first person people called to get something.

Now I need a breath of fresh air, people are nowhere to be found and dodging me.

I hope they know I love them all, but now from a distance.

All they say is I burnt bridges, but how you think I feel.

Just as much pain and hurt I probably caused you, I’m sure you have done the same to me.

I remember that I was important to check in on to see if I was doing okay.

Things have come a long way from then, I only get calls when people die, or not even then.

Sad how life treats you.

I was told once before by a mentor, good things happen to good people.

I feel like not for me, I feel depression can make people commit suicide for the pain.

People is going to look at that previous line as I’m planing my death.

Not knowing life itself has chosen my path for me.

Texas is the place where my paycheck couldn’t even pay my rent at one time.

To coming back to my birth place that I hate and paying it with no problem.

Still seeing the blind side of the stress from not affording life’s materials you need.

I’m just human and have to put my life on display since I am so shielded.

I don’t have to tell things in more detail, but people who do decide to call me wants to know what happened.

All I can say is life happened and tricked me into being birthed.

It’s not my choice to be here on the earth where things are ruled by greed and power.

I feel damned that I have to be trapped in my demise like this.

All I want is sleep.

I have seen more than I can bare, from death to shootouts and drugs sold.

I slept around so much before I got married, to where I can’t lust to cheat like other men when I’m angered with my wife.

People want my life in a book and it’s plenty to tell.

I recall one time walking over my old friend after he got shot and damaged real bad, didn’t know it was him.

Life is a trip you have to be prepared for at all times.

Wish I could call on God sometimes, but do he want me to see tragic trials to get me lifted.

I’m at the bottom of a hill, and can’t walk up it to save my life.

People will never understand where I have been in life until they can say I have stood in front of that gun.

Letting the holder know what you would still do to him, with no fear of death.

Well I have, and I am proud to say I have done what most people couldn’t stand to do.

I don’t fear death, I fear leaving my daughter with no one to love her.

Went to school for a good minute, now I have to push it back.

It’s bad because I was an honors student, without working and studying hard.

My chances have been taking from me, just because my turn is now to face struggle again.

Hell is here not in an after life.

The earth is the devil’s playground, and if you feel different walk in my shoes.

I have been told I am on the road of having a stroke or heart attack.

How would you know, if I always have to call you.

Man I would rather die young working hard.

Than die old forced to work a job to survive then.

All I can say now is pray for me, since people don’t have time to pray with me.

Hope I can hold my head up with no frustration anymore.

I’m done before I keep telling my business.